summer

So instead of sleeping my life away and being depressed all of the time, I have tried to pick up some hobbies...

like Gardening

Stephen and I decided to plant a garden and thanks to the help of Riley and Emily we have successfully done so

I am also taking a class at UMKC with Emily called Food Not Lawns.
We are learning some pretty sick stuff.

^ this is the start of our peppers that should be ready to harvest by fall

^ green bean seedlings, arent they precious?!!?

^ tomato!!!!

^ this plant does not vegetate, but i have pretty much killed it twice. I had no hope for it and then i gave it a little care and now its back. aww yeah.


as for other hobbies go, biking has been on my list
i have been trying to ride my bike more often
although, this heat is killing me
but i would choose it over snow anyday.



^ this is not a bike i ride everyday, but it is one of my most beautiful posessions.
I have had her for quite some time now
she is a beauty
she also needs a new tire as well as tube :/



New friends have also been made,
and by made i mean purchased and forced
hahahaaa
^ this is walker, she has been around for awile now.
i love her and want her to be like a cat.
i let her out everyday and feed her lettuce.

^ this is our newest edition
i dont really like her very much
but maybe she will grow on me
this is our hairless rat named christian
paul thinks that she feels like a ball sack
therefore he has renamed her ball sack
hahah
dirty little thing she is.


So work is definately not a hobby,
but it takes up quite a bit of my time.
so the other day while i was working
we were hit by a microburst
which i had to research, not knowing what it was
but i went outside to grab and umbrella
which then lifted me off of the ground
and jessica had to run to my rescue
the giant umbrella folded inside out and broke
and we were left soaking wet and very cold for the rest of the day
...it was quite the event

^ jessica and me being wet and cold
...not the most flattering picture
but hey, what can ya do?


^this is just an illustration of a micro burst
crazy Lil fella aint he


this week i also took boaters ed at Bass Pro Shop
hahaha it was ridiculous
but i am now a registered boater
awwwww yeeeaaaaaa

so yeah, i try to stay busy
and keep my mind occupied
vacation is next week, it is starting to stress me out
way more than feel like a vacation
but i think i will enjoy myself





I am blessed
and life is alright for being life
what do i have to complain about really?
i have shelter
i have food
i have water
i have love
and Big G will never fail me
my God will never back down


i love you.
alyssa lynne

updattteee

well this is day 3 of mom being in the hospital
she is conscious now and her fever has dropped
she has a major kidney infection
as well as some blood disease
these last couple days have been rough

im ready for something totally awesome to happen
i dont know what that will be
i dont know if that will happen
but that would so totally rule

im going on vacation in a couple weeks
and i hope that it will feel like one
because i definitely need one

im drained

i love you
alyssa lynne

solar powered

i have discovered that i am solar powered
and that this rain is really trashin my parade

i am going on vacation soon and i am
so very excited

i am ready for adventure in life
more of my dreams to come true
i need to make that happen
only one life to live right?
might as well do what i want
be happy
there isnt any reason not to be

i am suffering alot with this new disease that i have
it is painful, and the most scary thing i have ever dealt with
it makes me feel alone and afraid
it tries to make me hate my life
but i cant let it take over, right?
so i suppose i could use some prayer for that

summer isn't near over but i still fear winter coming back
stupid winter
summer is rockin though
i have to make it rock
awww yeah

hang on
hold fast
be strong
fear not
pray without ceasing

i love you.
all of you.
always.
alyssa lynne.

SUMMER!

is probably one of the best things ever.
seriously
God saw it and said HELL YA THIS RULES
fo sho

;)

I LOVE YOU
alyssa lynne

One Life

GOD FILLED
HATE FREE


internet fast is over
although i think i may limit myself from it

summer has begun
and its pretty much the only thing i have to look forward to
but i know that winter will come back
suck

one of my best friends is moving away tomorrow
i am having a really really hard time with it
i feel like i am losing everyone
and that is ridiculous
because i am not

my cousin graduates soon
i really would love to see him walk
but i cant
and it blows
i miss him
and alot of people

havent really had God time this week
slaacckkking
i've realized that life is easier with him

tonight i am going to hang out with brittany
and the girls she mentors...
they are amazing
and remind me that my life is not that bad
i love them
i love people
even when i think i dont
i just cant help it
i live to love
even when times are hard

i love you
alyssa lynne

Luminous beings are we, Not just crude matter

i will post tomorrow
my mind is everywhere right now
kinda down like barfing
but somehow kinda positive.
yeah.
i just cant think straight right now
not necessarily bad.
tomorrow.

i love you.
alyssa lynne

Its time to move forward. time to heal.

i am rereading my romans post today
it is a good one for sure

i dont think that anyone should be alone
especially through a hard time
and i dont think that anyone will be
as long as you try to be around people
things will work out

i still want to leave
i want to go to california
and start a new life
it sounds so easy
so sweet
so perfect
but i was called here for a reason
and G-d doesnt want me to leave
he doesnt want me to take the easy way out
i have to press on
even though it kinda sucks
hahahaa

i havent had a fake smile in a long time
i dont smile often right now
and when i do
it is completely 100% real
and it feels amazing

sleep
is another story to me these days
honestly, i cant
and when i do it's awful
i usually cry like a baby
and fall asleep
and wake up with a back ache
i dunno how hahaha
again, i do not like to sleep anyway
waste of time
so i dont do too much of it
unlessssss
i am tired of thinking about reality
i think if i sleep i wont have to deal with it
so i just sleep all day long
but thats not everyday
just when i get really upset

i think i may read Colossians
but only after i finish reading Romans

I have been CREATING a lot more lately
CREATE is definitely a good word
fo sho fo sho

create
creating
created

who is rambling now?
me
thats just how i be yo

hmmmm
i am thinking about buying a car
but i dont know if i need one
i can usually find rides to and from work
and bike rides to Benetti's sure arent too bad
so maybe i dont need one
we'll see

i miss life how it used to be
but i cant change the past
i can only rebuild a future
and that is what i intend to do
it is definitely hard
but it is what i want
and i will fight for it

well
i dont know what else to write today
i love my life even when it sucks
i am thankful to be alive
i love my friends
sooooooooooo much
they are not tools ;)
i love my mommy
she needs some prayer
yep

a lot of laughter in this post...
i like it

have a good day
i love you.
alyssa lynne...
...is still praying without ceasing